Feeling foolish

I went out to lunch yesterday.  I put on 4 pounds.  Dagnabit.  That just confirms that I really can't eat out and lose weight at the same time.  Forget it.  I don't like eating out that much.  I don't.  I feel bad.  I don't want that feeling anymore.

I want to feel good.  I want to be naturally slender.  I want to be comfortable in my own skin.  When I eat out, I'm none of those things.  Forget it.  I don't want to be liked that much.  I don't.  I only go out to eat to be social. I hate that I feel comprimised.  I am going to just say no from now on.  If they want to hang out they can find me.  Or, I can cook and bring food that does not sabotage my weight loss plans.